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Monday, October 5th, 2009

Crisis Imminent

library-8304My existential crisis that is.  That heap of tulle partly represents a Halloween garland I’ve been working on and partly what my brain feels like at the moment only a little more organized.  The tulle is more organized than my brain that is.  I was really productive today and I thought I might get this done too but I’m putting it aside from now and watching an old movie on tv because I think my brain just needs  a little break.

I started out stressed this morning because of a mix up at work.  I got that sorted out and banged out a ton of work with Ben and Chase both out of the house but at the same time I had all that quiet space to think and let the worry sink in.  The worry that we’ll have another baby here in less than 90 days.  We haven’t made a single decision.  Forget about paint.  We haven’t nailed anything down.  We need to look at finances and make some hard decisions.  Have  I mentioned how little I’m looking forward to this?  But we’re running out of time and it has to be done.  What will I do with myself?  

I guess for tonight I’ll let myself off the hook one more time and be content to sit here and rub my belly a little.

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